damn it

I feel so stupid again. Why do I always exert so much effort to have what I want? I just end up feeling horrible whenever it doesn't go my way. I'm getting tired of this. I wanna give up. Lost cause na ba or what? Ayoko na magpilit. Para na kong tanga. Manhid kasi. Anlabo pa. I wanna be gone for a while. Baka mas ok pa. Ang aga-aga nakakasama ng loob. Damn it.